i'm single. i cheated on phil one too many times. he ended things. and i know that this time it is for real. i havent really let myself think about it or cry yet. i'm sure i'll break down at some point.
i'm just going through the motions. working as much as they ask me to and sleeping when im not at work.
i havent even gone out to see my horse in a week. today i was off but it was raining and i was just so exhausted.
i need therapy but i dont know how to tell my mom that. she thinks i am doing so well.
i might not really use lj anymore, we'll see. but if you unfriend me i wont be offended. for now i am just here. i'm not good, but i'm not that bad.